Friendship.. (to Loretta Lynn Raynord)

Never talk about friendship if u yourself didnt respect and appreciate your friends...

I know i am not perfect..maybe sengaja or x sengaja, i hurt them sometime..but wait a minute..let me finish this..

Time sekolah rendah dulu..i have a very best fren..nama dia Loretta Lynn Raynord...she is a very nice girl..sometime,dia very annoying n suka main sinta2 sama budak2 llaki...sampai mummy sa ckp jgn kwn sama dia...but sa mc jg kawan sama dia...why?because i know her...she is not like what people see..that main2 doesnt mean she is not a good girl..kami kwn dari tahun 3 (1997)..we went to the same school,study together..u know wat..dia sgt good in studies n sports..she teached me how to do origami swan (i still remember how to do it until now)..she gave me her pic time dia masi kecik2...i still keep it until now...we pass UPSR,then went to same sekolah menengah on 2001...then suddenly dia jatuh sakit...then x lama, dia disahkan menghidap kanser tulang...kmi smua yg kwn2 dia..dont know to say anyhing...we juz hope yg dia akan sembuh cpt..p skolah sama2...kmi ada jg p melawat dia...dia nmpak sgt lemah but kmi nmpak rambut dia start growing suda..rmbut dia gugur b4 this becoz of kemoterapi..so dlm hati kmi "yeah...x lama lg dia p skolah suda balik..."..kmi happy sgt2 tme 2...

Then one day..sa baru balik dri skul..dduk2 kejap tgk tv..then phone bebunyi...mummy angkat that telefon..it was 4 me from my fren, doris...sa pun bediri la..bru ja sa pgg gagang telefon 2, mummy said "ko suda taw ka 2.." 1st sa heran la napa mummy ckp gtu..then bila doris bgtaw sa 1 berita..1st sa tediam...then i cry...after i ask her bila that happen n bila kami mo p rumah dia, sa letak phone n straight p mandi...time mandi..i cry..air mata becampur sama air paip...WHY SHE HAVE TO GO SO SOON?after byk2 dia bt treatment, ntah berapa kali operate...it still too late..akar2 cancer ordy merebak all over her body..i guess God lebih sygkan dia...she passed away at the same year..2001..(may God bless her soul..amen..)

Since that time, i realize how much KAWAN itu bernilai..

U'll never know suddenly ur fren akan pergi 4ever where ko lansung x akan jumpa dia lg d sini..

Time 2 la ko akan menyesal n cry becoz u didnt layan dia baik2 time dia mc ada...

For me, yg sa myesal sgt adalah sa blm puas spend time dgn dia..

x peluang lg sama2 melalui usia remaja, where we will talk about our boyfriend n secrets...

or x peluang lg for our childrens play together...dlu sa pna terfikir jg gtu...but after dia pergi...

Sedih bila impian bersama u n ur best fren x kesampaian....

Sa berkwn dgn smua org..tidak kira who they are, dari mana asal dorg...

I treat them nicely..,tolong dorg when dorg minta even sometime kna korbankan diri sa sendiri..

(but now..sa limitkan nice sa 2...since i experience my too much kindness sendiri menyakitkan sa..)

If sa berkawan, sa x tgk rupa n siapa mereka..as long as they treat me nicely, i'll treat them extra nicely...mmg kdg2 ada jg yg bikin sakit hati sa jg gaya dorg...yg x ngam dgn sikap sa..not my type la knun2..tp as long as sa masih bernafas, sa still anggap dorg kawan, hang out with them, chat with them or juz walk with them...bukan la yg terus ja x mo layan dia or hate them smpai bila2 mcm sesetengah org 2...

bukan utk membanggakan diri sa la..but sa rasa sa antara yg masih layak bercakap about friendship...

in short word...teruskan berkawan, but dont over limit..berkawanlah dgn niat baik..dpt kwn, keep it baik2...simpan dalam ati..create wonderful moment with them (i mean in a good way la...)..ambil gmbr byk2 dgn dorg..nnt suda kawin, tunjuk dgn anak2 n say "nak...ne la kwn2 bapa/mama time muda2 dlu..."...wonderful kan?manataw dlm gmbr kwn2 2 tiba2 anak ko ckp "papa/mama...ne mama/papa kan?"..then u shyly said "eya..dia la 2..." smbil tgk2 hubby/wife ko pun tesenyum2..hahahaha... ^^

to all of my frens yg pernah kenal sa..

>> Tabika Kemas Kelawat

>> Kg Kelawat

>> SK Kelawat

>> SMK Pekan, Kota Belud

>> SMK Tenghilan, Tamparuli

>> Kolej Matrikulasi Labuan

>> UMS KK n KAL

mybe some of u lupa sa suda...tp believe me, sa x pna lupa kmu...

I respect you all..i appreciate you all as my friend..and i'll cherish our friendship until the end of time...

p/s: so funny when i come across this young girl on 2007....i said "hi farena..lama x jumpa..pa kabar ko?"..she bingung2 kejap...then senyum n said "joan kan?" then we both laugh..we havent meet since 2001 school holiday...its good when people still remember me after havent meet them for over 5yrs..even kmi kenal beberapa bulan ja dlu...wohooo~~!!! ^^ my long lost fren also ada yg add sa d FB n say "hi joan..igt sa lg?pa kabar?lama nda jumpa.." of course i remember u darling!! YOU ARE A FRIEND FOR LIFETIME!! ^^